When I go out with my friends to ride horse I know that they have learned so much more about them then I and when I lift my leg to get on and swing the other over clumsily, I can think two things, wow this is like the billionth time I've gotten on a horse, this is great! I have something to tell people,
of course I have probably only been ridding for a year, but the fact that I still can't comfortably trout has nothing to do with the horse, it has to do with the power that I see when I look at one the 15 ways I can name one how I can be handicapped on one,
it's about the ways I can be broken and never walk again, but then I brush those thoughts off for one I don't care about it and the other is that if you think about bad things and then turn them into good ones anything can be anything and fears can be turned into great fun things to do,
so when I get on a horse and I see the power I see the chance for a fun time, I see a animal to be respected, after all I own dogs they could kill me, I own cats who could give me scares for life, so whats the point for being scared of them?
so after these thoughts are out of my head we are normally done and it's time to go home but once I'm home, I think about rideing and fun it was I think about how I should have raced up the road beside my friends and past them trigering the other horses into a run and then raceing against the wind that would hit my face but then I remember that I hate the sound of hoves hitting the road and that I would most likely look down and freak out then fall, and after I went to the hospital I wouldn't be invited again for randomly doing such a thing and not telling anyone that I was going,
but the thing that I remember is that most of the things in my life I had to push myself into, some people walk in the door some people push it open and some people count to three close their eyes and jump holding their breath all the while knowing that their will be a floor and that their is nothing to be worried about, I think that I am one of those people, and that when I push myself I can do it, so now every time I get on the horse I accept that all those things may happen but I also look forword to the fun and joy of the ride,
and after all, if you let go, trust, and feel the ride their wont be any problems that you can't take care of without freaking out, so jump on the horse!
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ok so this is just a draft I am working on, it and it should be perfect soon enough but who know? I may very well be working on this for years :) tho I doubt it.
p.s I will add a picture too, :)
